I apologize in advance for this blog... it may not make any sense but I think I just needed to type something...
Today was a rough day... I won't go into detail, not because it's boring, but because it's no one else's business.
You see, I've got this thing to deal with, this... thing... called... Life. It comes at you fast and without warning... then all of a sudden it's gone. all of a sudden, what seemed to be a huge, existence altering event is over and all you have to show for it is a couple of tired, sore muscles and a weakened heart.
But, that's not all folks! If you act now, you can recieve one heaping dosage of reality the next time you've settled in and think things are going your way.
That's the problem with life when you start to get older I think... There is absolutely no such thing as settling down and being laid back. No matter how much one tries, something comes back to them and bites them in the bum.
"I'm sorry, but you forgot to do this while you were relaxing"
"EXCUSE ME! But, don't you realize what you're missing out on because you decided to take it easy?!?!?!?"
"GET OFF YOU'RE LAZY @$ AND DO SOMETHING USEFUL YOU UNGRATEFUL PILE OF
I honestly think it's become harder for me to relax without feeling like I'm doing something wrong... and to be truthful, I hate that.
No, I don't want to lie around and do nothing. No, I don't want everything handed to me on a silver platter. No, I'm not lazy and I do have ambitions in life. But, I DO want to take the chance to just sit back and be at ease without worrying about what else is going on. Without thinking something is askew.
Is that really so much to ask?